Worst day in months!

I hate dentists!do you know why?when I was 12years old,that cruel dentist who worked at Visakha Vidyalaya's dental lab filled one of my teeth and tortured me (until I almost faint) for about an hour in the process!it wasn't even a permanent filling.But I was scared to death and avoided her so that teeth had to be removed when that stupid temp. filling started to fall in pieces.ugh!

So after that I hate dental labs and dentists.But today...grr...I can't avoid it any longer cos there are three teeth that need filling.and one,to remove.I brush my teeth twice a day and I don't like sweets except chocolate,mashmellows and chewing gum....! I don't know why those decay like this.too weak I guess...

It's pretty pathetic seeing me when my teeth is filled.if an outsider heard me he might think dentist is raping me or something.cos even before that damn grinding machine starts,I beg,moan,cry,whimper and plead not to hurt me.totally freak out.lol.like a five years old!

I guess that's a phobia.dental phobia...that sickening gringding sound makes me nauseous! And I start to shiver when i'm in my cue.and I start sweating when I see that big chair (it has a name right? I don't know) and when the dentist asks me to lay on that i start hyperventilating!ugh.it's pure mortification.I can even cut myself,watch when the needle go through my skin in a blood test.but god!no teeth filling!

So today's a very bad day for me.I'm leaving in now to meet a dentist and to fill three goddamn teeth!

Will he use local anesthesia if I ask?oh,I will even beg him on my knee if he wants...

Oh god.give me strength....hehe.i'm nervous....shit.

Must go.bye bye

post filling note-

well,dentist was a lady doc.she's great! It didn't hurt!but that women charged Rs1200! Only for 2 teeth!

said 3rd one doesn't need filling.but the worst case is,she didn't fill a tooth what I told her to fill.said there isn't a cavity.and filled another one which doesn't hurt!hehe.mad docs!

PPS-just got a lift from my 15years crush's (a guy a had a crush since I was5 yrs old) daddy.lol.it was totally awkward.I have no idea what to talk/say in a situation like that.so I end up showing how dumb I really am.gosh...
I looo....ve that uncle,looo...ve that aunt.but their son is a complete moron! I don't like him now.huh.lucky bastard...